Weigh-In - Wrinkly, Hanging Skin

Hey y'all.  I am so happy spring has arrived.  I am loving the warmer weather.  The temperature has been in the 80's all week!!  Not bad for March weather.  Of course, it kind of makes me wonder how hot our summer will be this year.  Oh well, I guess sweltering heat in the summer is a small price to pay for a decent winter.  I'll take the lesser of two evils, which to me is a hot summer! :-)

At least in the wintertime you can cover up everything you don't want people to see. (Although I usually cover up everything even in the summertime.  I basically don't want anyone to see anything!)  This summer I think I will be showing a little more skin than in recent summer's past. 

A, (our one and only son) has begged us for several years to take him to the beach....ANY beach.  I was absolutely horrified by the thought of myself in a swimsuit in front of a bunch of scantily clad women and men at the beach.  Nevertheless, this year I have decided it's time to face the music and bare myself to the masses. (No, I'm not baring EVERYTHING,......just the essentials, like arms, and legs. Aren't you relieved?)

After resigning myself to the fact it's time to put my new thinner body on public display for the sake of my child, I still feel a little intimidated by the fact I'm still fat.  Just not as fat as I was this time last year, or any year in recent history.

Not to mention, I have loose skin on my upper arms, thighs, and tummy.  I have the remnants of a turkey neck, too.  I have so many stretchmarks, my body resembles a road map of the greater New York metropolitan area. 

To make matters worse, my little boy saw my tummy last night and exclaimed in surprise and wonderment, "Wow!  Talk about wrinkly, hanging skin!"

First of all, we weren't talking about wrinkly, hanging skin.  I was proudly showing off my tummy to prove how much smaller it is now.  However, after he mentioned it, I began to really look at myself.  And, unfortuneately he's absolutely correct.  I do have hanging skin and it is wrinkly! :-(  After he realized I was a little upset by his offhand remark, he quickly apologized.  He did not intend to hurt my feelings or say anything to upset me.  He was just amazed at the appearance of my stomach.  He said he had heard of things like loose skin after losing weight, but had never had the opportunity to witness these things firsthand. LOL...well, I guess I made his day at least.

I am actually dreading our trip to the beach. I really don't want to subject the masses to my abused body in a swimsuit....not even a one piece. However, because I have made a promise to my son, I am going to follow through and keep my word, even if it means humiliation for myself. In the past, I dealt with problems like this by avoiding situations which promoted public humiliation. I was basically humiliated every time I was in public....so I literally tried to avoid going in public as much as possible in recent years. I only went out when it was absolutely necessary. My hubby took over all the grocery shopping, because when I went into the store I invariably had a panic attack.....even before I saw the bill.

Nonetheless, although I cannot affort liposuction to get rid of the cellulite, or surgery to remove the wrinkly, hanging skin, I am going to go to the beach with my family this summer.  I will hold my head up high and feel proud of the fact I've lost more than 150 pounds.  I will walk past the Barbie's and Ken's gathered on the beach and let my wrinkly, hanging skin flap proudly in the gulf coast winds in honor of my weight loss success!

Now for the results of this week's weigh-in:

I lost 2.50 pounds this week!  This brings my total weight loss to 154.50 pounds!!!  I currently weigh 192.50!  Only 8.50 more pounds to lose until I reach my next 10% mini-goal.!  Also, in only 19 more pounds I will have literally lost myself!!!  Yay me!!!!

So, all of you Barbie's and Ken's who regularly congregate on the nation's beaches tanning yourselves and hanging ten....get ready to shield your eyes!!!  You've been warned!!!  Because, this summer this fat chick is coming to your beach with my wrinkly, hanging skin flapping proudly in the winds! 

Until tomorrow....have a wonderful today!